what you need.

A "Y"cable to connect ipod/computer to a RECEIVER

A home stereo receiver componenet. like this

the back looks like this. (dont worry it's really easy!)

Then just plug the white/red ends into ANY of these ones (tape, CD, Tv, etc) and power it up, select the same channel on the front of the receiver (tape, cd, tc etc) and it's good to go.

here is a link to a step by step description.. or just google "how to hook up a computer to a home receiver" etc




whoever can loan you the receiver will have speakers for it. ANY home speakers will do. and you can have up to four usually. this should be loud enough for your event(s) louder then a computer but not as fancy or expensive as a professional set up

Nearing the end of my juice fast

Nearing the finish line here, I gave way to temptation and weighed myself. I made my goal of 190 lbs! That's a loss of 17 lbs in 19 days which is only a couple more then I lose when I do the master cleanse for 10 days. I feel like I lost this weight in a less drastic fashion.(with a couple days to spare, which bodes well for me) You always gain 2 or 3 pounds over night when you start eating again, just how it works. On average people can only lose around 2.5 pounds of pure body fat per week so I will have lost around 8 pounds of fat I estimate when I am done on tuesday. This fast isn't just about weight loss but it's the first thing people ask me so... there ya go.

Nothing exciting or eventful has happened. If anything I've been very bored and even anti social, its amazing how not eating or drinking can affect your social life. I think I personally suffered from low blood pressure due to a lack of any salt at times, but I am not sure. I experienced a higher then avg amount of bouts with fatigue and dizziness from that or low blood sugars as I wasn't a pro about spacing out "meals" and such- a casualty of my erratic schedule. ( 3pm and I haven't eaten anything today for example)

Here is some good info on what my body has been going through the last two weeks...

Stage 3 (Day 8 to Day 15)

On the latter part of an extended fast, you can experience enhanced energy, clear-mindedness and feel better than you have felt since childhood. On the downside, old injuries may become irritated and painful. This is a result of the body's increased ability to heal during fasting. If you had broken your arm 10 years before, there is scar tissue around the break. At the time of the break, the body's ability to heal was directly related to lifestyle. If you lived on a junk-food diet, the body's natural healing ability was compromised.

During fasting, the body's healing process is at optimum efficiency. As the body scours for dead or damaged tissue, the lymphocytes enter the older, damaged tissue secreting substances to dissolve the damaged cells. These substances irritate the nerves in the surrounding region and cause a reoccurrence of aches from previously injured areas that may have disappeared years earlier. The pain is good as the body is completing the healing process. The muscles may become tight and sore due to toxin irritation. The legs can be the worst affected, as toxins accumulate in the legs. Cankers are common in this stage due to the excessive bacteria in the mouth. Daily gargling with salt and water will prevent or heal cankers.

Stage 4 (Day 16 to Day 30)

The body is completely adapted to the fasting process. There is more energy and clarity of mind. Cleansing periods can be short with many days of feeling good in between. There are days when the tongue is pink and the breath is fresh. The healing work of the organs is being completed. After the detoxification mechanisms have removed the causative agent or render it harmless, the body works at maximum capacity in tissue proliferation to replace damaged tissue. While a short fast will reduce the symptoms, a longer fast can completely heal. Homeostatic balance is at optimum levels. The lymphatic system is clean except for a rare discharge of mucus through the nose or throat. After day 20, the mind is affected. Heightened clarity and emotional balance are felt at this time. Memory and concentration improve.

Talk To You Laters

Juice Fast Day 14 ! (update)

Well I guess i felt like the every day minutia of things one feels and experiences on various days of the juice fast are pretty redundant. Weird symptoms like insomnia, bad breath, dizziness you name it All are par for the course. I didn't wanna moan about how boring it can be or isolating either... The benefits far outweigh the drawbacks! The main Qs I keep getting are

1. Why are you doing this?
2. Why cant you just EAT the foods instead of juice them?
3. How much weight have you lost?

1. I decided to do this to sort of "reboot" my system. I wanted a semi brainless set up. Preparing meals and eating right is just to time consuming and energy taking for me when I feel like shit... But juicing is easy. it takes 5 minutes to do and five minutes to clean up! My goals were to inject loads of vitamins and nutrients into my system, cleanse my digestive system, change my body PH, my palette and by default, my image.

2. TO "just eat" all the food I am juicing would be time consuming and painful... I juice a lot of foods! Clearly eating the foods is the long and medium term best thing to do, incorporated into a balanced diet, and that is what i hope to do when I come off my juice fast.

3. As far as my weight, IDK, I haven't weighed myself. I started around 207lbs... I imagine I've lost at least 13-14 lbs! one week left to go. You can only lose 2.5 lb of pure body fat per week I read somewhere anyway, the rest is just from not having food in my system as well as other sludge and dead cell mater, water weight etc.

I will post before and after pictures when I am done! It's a remarkable contrast already!

Here are some pics!

"Green Guiness"

Splash would bark as soon as the cukes turned ripe!

One of my juices

Berry grape and Cherry - sweet and tart!

Wheat grass shots

THANKS FOR READING!

IF YOU WANNA CONTRIBUTE 5$ TO MY VEGETABLE FUND I AM STILL SETTING UP MY PAY PAL! I AM GOING BROKE

My Juice Fast

I started a juice fast yesterday!

I am going to write about it here...

The first day I eased into it, buying fresh juice and some crappy pre juiced stuff but today I got to make my own. They were ok. One was too sweet the other had a vile after taste of radishes haha.

The scariest thing is that I have spent about 25$ a day on fresh fruits and veggies...

I hope to get that down when I find better deals.

I Will be setting up my PayPal if anyone

wants to help / contribute 10$ or 20$

Anywho here are some snaps of what I made today.

(Not the proper amounts, just ingredients!)

Concord Grapes, Apple, Blackberry, Ginger

Radishes, Carrots, Plum Tomatoes, Parsley, Celery, Jalapeno

Day one - you don't notice much

Day Two - "you" feel lethargic, sleepy eyed and pee a lot haha. (results vary by person) I also had an "off" tummy from the super load of healthy things it has been deprived of lately. I def need this reboot! For those of you wondering "WHY FAST?" Well my reasons are pretty simple. I want to lose weight, balance the PH of my body, reset my taste buds and eliminate unhealthy cravings. I also just lost my father to Cancer and had a birthday so you can't help but take a hard look at yourself in the mirror. People often scoff when I tell them I need to lose a few pounds but fact is I weight 205 lbs right now. It's not a hot look. I carry most of it on my belly and chest, some puffiness in my face. Here is what I looked like 25 lbs ago. (I was in my thirties in these pics.. appx 4 years ago)

my youtube channel

stay tuned for more vids

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why women like assholes... RANT

RANT = run on sentences =)

disclaimer!!

I love women, respect them.
It's not my job to comment on how bad men can be.
I am only offering my opinion of how women can be,
and usually are.

As an older young man, i can safely say.. i speak for many
(men)

what we want is simple.

enthusiasm.

it's that simple.

after being rejected 13,456 times, after playing 3,745 girl-initiated qualifying games,
( i stopped in 1995 or the number would be larger) and after being unfairly judged by the irrational convictions of girls 15 years my junior or the surprising insecurities of women 15 years my senior...

i can safely say that the one thing MOST girls tend to do,
if the first date went well,
at the most pressing time,
i.e. the second date,
is grind all momentum to a halt.
back off,

and start the games.

it is so boring.

god forbid i tell the "wrong" girl i had a real nice time, or i like her. she might think i am "falling for her" and she "doesn't need that right now".. so no second date.

not even a discussion. i am assed out of my chance to make her happy by her assumptions. ME? in love with you? after one date? it happens all the time to me and my fellow male friends who express themselves, i guess girls are used to boys that act cool and don't say shit and get drunk to be intimate. its easier that way, then you can have an excuse later and retract your apparent vulnerability.

so guess who they do need?

that aloof man. the guy that DOES wait 4 days to call them after he gets there number. the man that KNOWS how to challenge the ego of a woman, to manipulate her thus, to get her to keep interest.

i.e. the asshole.

"Sorry you can't spend the night. I need to send some emails. the L train is 7 blocks to the left"

If a guy goes on a date, and does a pretty good job, at least marketing himself well enough.. he is most well to do by doing nothing after... invariably the woman will wonder why he is not texting or calling etc. EVEN if she does not like him.

you see we are all animals, we all adapt. some time between suffrage and the movie working girl.. women started to get freedoms in the dating world.. until, thanks to the poorly organized union of humans with testicles not working together.. the women got ALL the power in the dating world.

the veto. the power to judge. the whole nine.

so they act accordingly.

the result. is that there are tons of good men, that know how to be naughty (not the nice guys finishing last) who are being frustrated by these surprisingly abrupt momentum destroyers.

there is no shortage of excuses.

the average man will believe them too. because most girls do not have the nuts to say they are "just not into you" and they are to faux-humble to admit they got freaked out cuz you said they were beautiful.

so instead they will be "busy" with work or this or that. just hoping you will go away.

but in reality, if they had a hot date.. who did not express his affections-they would never be too busy for that all wonderful second or third date when the fun starts. the fucking.
who is too busy to fuck?

no one i want to know.
I'm sorry.

thats the spirit!

So better date that asshole who is gonna be aloof and too busy for you back.
a.k.a. not vulnerable

then you guys can have a wonderful relationship of never seeing each other, except when you get drunk and booty call him to see if he is attracted to you.

i mean, don't sleep with someone for your own pleasure, do it just for your ego!

it seems to me that the rush to control the dating experience by the women's side was not so well thought out.

think about this.. in the 50's the guy would ask her out, pick her up, take her home, he called all the shots, he paid etc.

antiquated, yes.

but.. he was the one being vulnerable, taking a chance asking her out.

she just said "yes or no".

no pressure.

you want all the power these days, i mean hell, you ladies know if you are getting laid at the end of the night or not, we have no clue, you could be buck naked in front of us and we STILL wouldn't know

"Oh, we're not having sex. I just want to cuddle"

So if you want the power to call all the shots, etc. then you have to be vulnerable too. you cant sit back and expect us to do all the work when it suits you, then take over when you feel like it.

it won't work.

and you will get a million billion frustrated women.

and a lot of happy assholes.

im neither. i don't play games. if i want to have fun. i make it obvious, they can feign being disrespected if they want, or they can appreciate my effort at sincerity im not bothered.

i don't have time to waste.

MOREOVER

to paraphrase....
THE CINDERELLA COMPLEX
assholes part 2

Women!!??

how long is this going to continue?? your irrational ability to live in your own embellished version of reality? It is beginning to impede, i fear, your ability to achieve gratifying, sincere relations...

case in point.

me

the 2010 REBOUNDER OF THE YEAR - MALE CATEGORY-INTERNATIONAL



women have this knack for having the worst judgement of character,
more alarming, it does not seem to be of any importance, the actual innards of a man, his character.. all that matters is what they see, be it in potential or in their private perception of him...

countless times in the last year i have been "that guy" that a recently dumped or cheated on lady turns to.. not because i am sweet, a good listener nor caring, but more so because of my willingness to play that role.. though i am actually all those Things.. it did not draw them to me..

they chose me. because they saw me as generally handsome and fun, a catch, a mojo-regenerator if you will.

they needed to feel wanted, desired, so they put out affections, flirtations, proclamations of crushdom to me, said things like "i want you to meet my family" held my hand, kissed me on the corners as we walked.. all standard issue stuff, all on the first "date"

now this behavior lasted one or two encounters, as long they need to go through their denial phase of their break up.

they said out loud, to convince themselves and perhaps comfort me as to their good intentions, that they were "over their X" etc.. as one does.

all just enough to get me to reciprocate their sentiments and proclamations of crushdom. all just enough to fulfill the dialogue requirements and affection obligations inherited with the role i accepted.

invariably after this denial phase was over, (one or two dates) when they looked back on their sudden vulnerability, or more importantly, their outwardly perceived vulnerability, which was in fact manipulation of a good man for their own private fantasy, they would use harsh judgement.

they would invariably flake on me, and then judge me to boot, hold against me all the very same things they needed to hear from me in those times we spent together...

am i complaining?

no

BUT

did it ever occur to them that i might have had feelings, or been hurt, or been sincere?

no,

does it matter?

no

you see.. to them, a fair exchange is no robbery, i got some "fun", so whats the problem?

(if the slipper was on the other foot, how would a girl react? she would be livid! "how dare you use me for a rebound" tsk tsk double standards)

do they ever acknowledge they used me? pssssh bwahaha! =)

why analyze reality? why be accountable, why feel guilty when it is easier to look back and see themselves as philanthropists of fun then manipulative and desperate women who are actually very "not over their X's nor over their pain"..?

THE rebounding was their wanting to be able to control things... their feelings... to be able to live without need of someone else... yet ironically their choice of treatments was to run out and be needed again?? a little therapy until...

they move back into that... the pain and missing part, the longing for the DREAM of whomever they pretended their boyfriend to be.. they miss that.. instead of the REALITY, that he was abusive, or a cheater, or french or what have you..

my point?

well, lets delve a little.. when they first interacted with said cheaters and Frenchmen, how did they behave?

did they manipulate them in a similar manner.. doing and saying things to get the men to do and say things.. ??? some examples.. things girls say on the first date to initiate role playing, which can lead to long term relations based on utter bullshit.

"you are just trying to sleep with me"

WHICH GETS THE COMMON MAN TO LIE, SAY
"OH NO I AM NOT", AND TELL HER WHY SHE IS "SPECIAL."

just what she needs to hear. fuck him showing her why she is special, just listen and play along, the panties will be yours.. but you are accepting this method of interaction from henceforth.

another example would be something she says to get you to complement her, or to test you and see if you will react to her moods "appropriately" etc. will you daddy her, will you be her lap dog, will you this or that.. she will poke and prod your APTITUDES to see just how good you would be at playing the role she has in mind. based on her values, be it style, income, politics, vegetarianism etc etc etc. do you go with her?? like a handbag goes with shoes?

or the classic ,is she coming over, "oh i don't do that on the first date", he says "its cool we can cuddle", she agrees, one thing leads to another and she is getting it major, giving away control with great enthusiasm and he knew it from the start he was gonna get some even though the dialogue contradicted it..cuz we have all played the role- typical bullshit. instead of being vulnerable and acknowledging strong attraction or desire to the male, she would rather play games and let circumstance, be it cuz she was drunk or that they were in bed together be the "reason" things went down... only to say something dumb in the morning like "I'm not normally like that, or "i only did that cuz i was drunk", or whatever to which any man will say,

"oh i know, your not a slut, you are sweet and i really like you"

but his actions,
not calling you ever again...
show reality.
you see the pattern?

don't let him say he likes you.. make him show it!

most women fit into these archetypes sadly.

you see, it is all ego and fear.

the ego, a women will find a man, suitable, very desirable in her estimations, on her customized-value system... it is enough to know that this man wants her.. that is her aim usually. so she will put out little manipulative vibes, showing attraction or mild interest to which the common man will jump


the quicker you let her know you are interested, the quicker she is over it. its a game. now a desperate women will put out the vibe that she is indeed desperate, and guess what kinds of guys will get wind of it first? whom will see that her ego is low, and will swoop in and take advantage.. doing and saying just what they need to to get her to turn over he heart. (redundant.. yes the french men, the cheaters etc)


at that point.. the script is flipped.

the girl is attached to her dream, not reality..
women love to fight for their dream, for their relationship,

but ask them to fight for true happiness and they never do... the risk is too great.
being vulnerable, out of control, having faith in another

ego.. i have talked about this a lot in my rants... men are only as good or bad as we are perceived.. so it is wise never to take things personally good or bad from a woman unless you know for sure, 100 percent she is on the real with you.

usually post tom-boys and bi-girls, girls that are "one of the boys" are far better as partners.. cuz they will shoot straight, in general.

am i generalizing enough? i don't care...

how often have you heard a guy say "I'm in love, she is the best writer, or the best choreographer" ??
never right??

that's girl stuff.
lets like someone cuz of their work, their songs, or their books..
not because of their character.. lets see how this man becomes part of my identity, see ego, and how i feel about myself being associated with it...

"lets put up with all kinds of shit, because i am living in my dream world, not reality.. because he knows he has this leverage, because i am not the only girl out there that loves his books, or songs, or bangs or french accent, and he is gonna do his thing regardless, because i leveraged my affection and sex in order to make this ego acquisition and i am not gonna lose it, i am not a loser.. I'm keeping up appearances.. fuck my actual happiness, i need this bond, i need this identity."

fuck that.

get back to reality..

until you are fearless and can deal with reality, live in truths, see men for what they are by their actions and not their sweet words, until you can see men for what they are in the present, how they make you feel, not what they can be or could make you feel, you are doomed.

until you can do all that and not leverage "fun times"...

you are doomed

and MEN, learn to say no to sex,
learn not to put up with shit just for some ass.

(in my rebounds i took the sex, hoping in each case it meant something... but knowing that they offered it to me, only for me to take, so they would feel better.. if i refused, and said, i did not want to give my shit away so quickly, instead of respecting me, they would/have taken offense... been hurt, and manipulated me into fucking them even more.. funny how predictable it all is!!!)

you will be so much better off for not being so quick to fuck,
to not put up with games in the first place

and in a strange turn events,
her little rejection, or her little ego bruise,
might actually teach her something,

that there are good men out there,
that they might be able to better recognize them now,
and that they might be able to appreciate them more
to live in reality
instead of in their dream worlds.

remember when you are in a dream world, as soon as that man tires of it,
he bounces.

then its a nightmare

but it is your own fault... those words he said to you
that you play back in your head, you made him say it
instead of letting him actually love you,
instead of actually giving yourself...
don't hate the actor,
you directed him
you gave him a role to play

better to try appreciating him, respecting him and confiding and trusting in him.

love is not a scripted fairy tale

love is better improvised.
with enthusiasm
and reverence

my blog is more yummtacular

Some people just post pics of hot and beautiful things.. eye candy. We all love eye candy. I just write jibberish.

jibber jabber flip flapper.

Shoot, I have to run to the Loo.

I had a late night. to be continued

Pet Peeves 1

I hate those people who are always a day late with texts or calls. They always call to give you a summation of how busy they've been yap yap. They keep saying they wanna hang or this and that but they're not making plans... days become weeks.. it's all such a waste of energy. Like when the computer screen goes dim and you flick your mouse or the keyboard to light it back up, they're flicking at me.

I'm not a screensaver popping up on your desktop, Im not some IM at the bottom of your screen.

even worse when you stop bothering and they still flick away. Calling or texting to see what's new and keep in touch since god forbid if they didn't who else would they have to take for granted or complain too? =D

self absorbed people - pet peeve numero uno.

woo - hoo I am back

AND I am gonna blog about total bullshit.

be excited.

I see so many useless and boring blogs I thought I'd start posting aimless and shameless content about my bouts with sex addiction, drinking, unemploying and being old and creepy

where to start?

I quick peek back at my life here in NYC and it's pretty dismal. one job to the next, scrapping by, the odd nice vacation. No major changes for the good nor any accomplishments.

exciting right?

no long term relations.. just a few minor ones that didn't last.. a girl who tried to off herself and was crazy.. another long crush that fizzled.. and 3 unrequited loves.

ouch.

I guess i need to put some pictures in here. hmmm.

maybe later.

Here are some things you prolly didn't know about me.

1. I hate oatmeal. and it hates me
2. I have huge hands
3. I am paranoid about losing my hair
4. I have awful teeth and the dentists always ask if I am bulimic
5. I have a beauty fetish which makes it real hard for me to fall for girls that are attainable.
6. I don't care about there they re their or speling i consider blogs speech with words so there.
7. I am donating this line to Haiti
8. this one too
9. I feel pressure to get to ten but you prolly know everything else about me
10. i like going on dates and taking girls bras of

PICTURE TIME

no, fuck it! lets watch a crap video with a cheesy Australian unhooking a bra. i give him props for doing it left handed though. but lets see him do it with a fat girl on her back. harder!

ok that's it for tonight. I am going out in willyburg with my roomy from Spain. Paz
How to Remove a Bra - The best video clips are right here

Fire and Desire

I have a 6 inch 14 pound 15 year old demon inside of me

if anyone wants to see a REAL exorcism then holla! it's BYOB and you better prey to your local god that my shit doesn't run up in your ass! cuz he's gonna run like the dickens on mexican tap water...

EDIT

this fucker has his little hooks in my L5! change of plans! I need a waterproof ear speaker, a suppository and an ipod with celine dion on it...

Insert demon-bane MP3 here!

♫"Near, far, wherever you are..."♫